it's the second day and i'm not okay

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck life is very long? LIFE IS VERY LONG??? WHAT THE FUCK ???fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

streetlights blurred and smeared into a thousand points of light white red and green against shiny black streets. lines simple and sharp. i screamed. my heart hurts. drunk on two bottles of wine. i want my head to hurt. in a different way. i want to feel a different kind of something. in my head. in my hands. my academic father died last night. i don't know how to tell you what this means.